Thursday, January 21, 2010

Suicide

I was sitting at the computer the other day

it was night

I was drinking water from a bottle

I said to someone, "I missed my chance to kill myself. I should have killed myself right after my brother did, I wasn't talking to my family anymore, you and your family would have only known me for a year. We didn't have that many memories together. You would have got over it easily. I didn't teach your nephews how to fish and shoot pellet guns. I never fixed any house related things with your father. I could have legitmately killed myself, people would have said, 'Oh, Noah, his family wasn't good and he couldn't stand facing life without his brother and family.' It would have been simple. Of course people would have talked shit, they always do.

But I missed my chance.

Now I have to wait for my next chance."

14 comments:

Anonymous said...

i'll keep that in mind the next time i have a good opportunity. wisdom....

Anonymous said...

this should be in a book. in a fine fine book

Anonymous said...

I think about it a lot, too. If it weren't for two people in my life who I think it would actually negatively affect, it would probably already be done.

That "it's never worth it, there's always something to live for" is such crap.

Anonymous said...

As the Anonymous person said above, if the thing holding you back is concern about the negative effect on other people, then perhaps ironically that would be the thing you are living for.

ryan manning said...

Suicide (Latin suicidium, from sui caedere, to kill oneself) is the intentional killing of one's self. The most common cause is an underlying mental disorder which include depression, bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, alcoholism and drug abuse. Financial difficulties or other undesirable situations play a significant role.

Noah Cicero said...

"As the Anonymous person said above, if the thing holding you back is concern about the negative effect on other people, then perhaps ironically that would be the thing you are living for."

Agree

Anonymous said...

keep passing open windows. earth needs you.

timothy said...

if there are those that would suffer from me ending my suffering then let me suffer.

Ryne said...

Tough.
I sometimes think too, why haven't I done it already.

Anonymous said...

used to think i should have done it when was 17. now i feel like i've outstayed my welcome or something.

Anonymous said...

Please don't kill yourself.

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