Good time

I feel really depressed right now

i mean shit

like a real good solid depression

has just kicked in

and

i'm lovin' it

can

you feel that depression

get some

get some

depression

allow yourself

to flow

on the ever lasting

boat ride of total mindless depression

Finished First Draft of Best Behavior

The first draft is 65,174 words. 180 pages in open office.

It has taken six months to finish this first draft.

This will not be my best book.

I think there are like some readable parts.

I don't think double day will publish it

it is still a fucked up book

by a fucked up person

it is okay.

REVIEW OF BRANDON BOOK CRISIS

I just read the book

it was actually pretty entertaining

heart warming

two bros trying to get something done

doing the impossible in the nick of time

it reminded me of my dad and his friend george trying to make a race car in the garage.

It mirrors this in its power and magnitude

day 2

awoke to headache

the gas and stomach problems went away

it was the first morning i awoke to no cigarette in over a year and a half

checked my email

the emails made me dizzy

responded with dizzy answers

a paper magazine called The Journal out of Brooklyn is going to publish some poems, I said, "Sounds good," in dizziness.

think I showered for a long time.

ate a pudding pop.

went outside, think it was before 11

played basketball by myself for an hour

tilled the middle of the garden

plucked weeds in the lettuce area by hand not to hurt the spring mix arising from the good earth.

Read Desolation Angels by Kerouac. Kerouac told me to finish my associates degree, forget everything, join americorps, and then work for a national park. He told me to be a wild eyed poet of lost dreams under the tathagata diamond sun dreaming on stools reading the proustian heart of mind dancing with girls - long legs that don't care - you live on dewdrop that dries up.

ate some waffles from a freezer at some point.

The day went nowhere

Played some more basketball

someone finally came home with a car

took the car and bought sugar baby watermelons, butternut squash (Does anybody know how to prepare it or know what it tastes like?), cantaloupe, and zucchini.

Then ate some sandwiches.

Planted the aforementioned plants in then middle of the garden with bernice and john.

It will look cool i believe.

on one side of the garden is tomatoes and peppers, the other side is corn and potatoes and in the middle is big spreading plants.

took a nap

bernice's 13 year old niece called when I was sleeping

said she was on the westside of youngstown and needed a ride home

head hurt so fucking much

it still fucking hurts, not as bad

went and picked up

finally started raining

rain made everything good

my ancient farmer soul was crying

the primordial poet of the soil

Bernice's 13 year old niece goes to a charter school

her school has no band, no art, and no gym class

the fucking kid can't play an instrument, draw a fucking picture, or shoot a lay up.

Charter schools are producing a mass of fuckheads.

She is going back to normal school next year.

Ate meatloaf, creamed corn and mashed potatoes

played basketball with a 70 year old man who told me stories of his great basketball days.

The 70 old man was on a lot of painkillers because he is like old and dying and kept throwing the basketball from behind his back and dashing around. I just stood there trying to be polite, hoping one day when I was 70 and was talking about writing, a young man would be respectful and pretend to care what I was saying.

Went to dairy queen with the 13 year old.

The 13 year old is a good character. She doesn't cut herself or listen to emo, she reads goosebumps and sits quietly with a Yatesian look on her face. She lets me tell her about John Rawls and the constitution. She thinks there is something mysterious and powerful about Alexander Hamilton.

Then I went home and went to sleep

it was 9pm when i went to sleep

just woke up at 2am

listening to Pearl Jam and Sound garden.

trying to quit smoking

I'm trying to quit smoking this week

i only work three days and have a bottle of vicodin so it might be possible

the cigarettes i smoke just went up to 4.80 a pack. When i started smoking they were like 1.25 a pack.

i can't afford to smoke anymore.

red lobster has outlawed smoke breaks

so the world doesn't want me to smoke

now i'm freaking out

i've smoked only 3 cigarettes today

i usually smoke like 20 to 30 a day

last night i thought i was going to kill myself

i was paranoid the whole night

and considered suicide

then i took a vicodin and felt fine

i'm here alone now

listening to zee avi

having all these strange random thoughts like:

*

Writers do not have constants, kill yourself

*

get a job in the rockies doing something stupid, enjoy life

*

suffer for the sake of responsibility and proving that you aren't worthless

*

Just be worthless, no one cares

*

Jack Kerouac wrote a lot of incoherent paragraphs but i find those paragraphs strangely smoothing. was that the point?

*

i will never make any money and die in a ditch naked

*

you should go up to the girl that exercises a lot at work and tell her you love her out of boredom

*

give yourself an enema

Does anybody want to spend the summer with me on my porch

Is there anybody out there

that would like to come to Youngstown Ohio

preferably a woman

but i'm lonely

and if you are a guy and look cute in a black thong

i might consider you

this is the plan for the summer

every morning

i'll wake up

check my email

shower

go to the gas station

buy cigarettes get coffee

come back to the house

work on Best Behavior for two hours

after that we can talk

then we will work on the garden together

then we sit on the porch, drink coffee and stare

only three days a week i work, so i'm free four days a week

you can get a job too

working three days a week

on our days off

we can sit on the porch lying on lawn chairs reading kathy acker to each other drinking tall boys or cheap wine

then we can watch horror movies

and fall asleep

we will do this for three months straight

we will have no money and we won't eat much

but we will have kathy acker

sometimes we will listen to country music or 1930s blues

that will make us feel better

we might get enough money one day to take a trip to Nelson Ledges

we can look at the rocks and feel okay

we won't really feel okay

but we will pretend

it really won't be that bad

i'm serious

Brandon Scott Gorrell picks a winner

sarah schneider wrote a really cool story and won the contest.

Gorrell also gives his reasons for picking the story at the bottom.

I enjoyed this line, "Michelle, alert and blinking a lot, was thinking about throwing a fried chicken leg really far-so far it would keep going, into the horizon, until it became too small to see"

made it to 55,000

Today I made it to 55,000 in Best Behavior and i think I can get at lest 70,000.

This is a milestone for me.

Blue Collar Boy is 52,000 words.

So I've gone to new levels word counts.

Toystoy and Dostoevsky didn't have word count, I assume their books were so big because they didn't know they were done.

All the novel really is, is shit talk.

Not like bad shit talk.

But just talking about other people.

Labron James is a Rawlsian and Kobe Bryant is a Libertarian

John Rawls believed that endowments and talents are arbitrary. In the original position behind the veil of ignorance no one knows who will be tall, fast, or have the childhood and time to become talented and great. And because of that, you should recognize that others will not share your talents by nature and fate, and you should share what wealth comes from your talents.

The libertarian view of say Robert Nozick, Ayn Rand and Ron Paul states that people have endowments and because they are theirs, they don't need to share anything.

I believe Labron James like Michael Jordan, Shaquille O'Neal, Barry Sanders, and Joe Montana hold a Rawlsian sense of justice. When they played or still play they do it and did it for everyone. They seemed like they were having a good time. They were always humble. They did things for the kids. Man, when Michael Jordan made a game winning basket, it wasn't only doing it for the people of Chicago, but for the whole damn world and especially for all the kids. It was like he knew, "Damn, if I make this basket, it won't just make me win, but there are going to people in their living rooms and bars all over America, that are going to stand up chanting and screaming, after the game the men and women will fuck each other hard, and the kids are gonna run out into the driveway and imitate my shot the whole next day."

I think Kobe Bryant and Tom Brady hold the libertarian view, those two don't seem to give a shit about anybody but themselves. Bernice said it perfectly after Wednesday's game, "Kobe Bryant didn't lose, the Lakers did."

I don't even think Kobe Bryan or Tom Brady even smile. They both just stand there, thinking constantly, "I must win, I must win, I must win." There is no recognition of all the people sitting in their living rooms and bars watching.

And I want to note, the only person I know cheering for the Lakers where I work is a Glenn Beck republican. I would say he was a libertarian, but I'm sure he couldn't even name the three branches of government let alone describe what he votes for.

Obama prosecuting Cheney

There are a lot of liberals that want Obama to prosecute Cheney and Bush and Rumsfield on torture.

But Obama doesn't want to do it.

Which pisses them off.

I think the reason Obama won't do it is because he knows it won't effect him getting elected.

Only 21 percent of America is identifying themselves as Republican now. And people like Beck and Limbaugh are driving more people from them everyday.

The people who voted for Obama can be grouped into several categories:

Women who are pro-choice
People who don't want endless war
Hispanics who want some sort of citizenship
Blacks who don't want republicans fucking up their lives
People that know that tax cuts for the rich don't actually help the economy
union workers who know republicans hate unions

There are little things like stem cell research, more pell grant and student loan money, and making americorps bigger.

But those aforementioned things are the basics of why people vote democrat

I don't think most people care if they ever prosecute cheney

Really only super liberals that are well read and are college educated.

I mean I would like to see personally cheney get sent to federal prison. I think that would be funny.

But on an emotional level that isn't going to change my vote

But there are things like Clinton basically letting the Iraqies starve with sanctions, that could be mentioned at the trial

I think they went up to Obama and said, "This is going to drive the republicans nuts, and they will bring up every fucked up thing every president ever did since George Washington and how they didn't get prosecuted. They are going to bring up General Sherman under like Ulysses S. Grant murdering Native Americans without remorse."

Sherman wrote to Grant, "[w]e must act with vindictive earnestness against the Sioux, even to their extermination, men, women and children."

And Grant replied, "That's cool."

Should we go and get Grant's dead body and bring him to trial also?

I'm not saying I wouldn't like to see Cheney put in prison, what I'm trying to convey is very few people will care. And if you do care, you are so liberal you won't vote for a republican anyway.

The Cup Machine

There is a machine

The machine produces cups

The logical form of a cup it produces

There is no exact design for the cups

None of the cups the machine produces are identical

Each cup is different from every other cup

1. Are the cups imperfect because each one is different?

2. Are the cups perfect because each one is different?

3. Is the machine perfect because it always produces cups that are not identical to every other cup?

4. Is the machine broken because it cannot produce identical cups?

Molloy

Has anybody ever read Molloy from beginning to end without stopping?

I've owned the book for like 7 years.

I always skim through it.

Like opening to random pages.

I get the impression that Samuel Beckett was like, "I want to to design a book where I don't have to care about plot or anything. When I get some feelings and some words that go along with those feelings, I will walk over to the typewriter and write those feelings down using the characters I've created."

On every page there's at least one really refreshing sequence of lines like, "I called, Zula! Little Zula! and he would come and talk to me, through the railings. But I had to be feeling gay. I don't like animals. It's a strange thing. I don't like men and I don't like animals."

After I read a some lines like that

I feel really good

James Chapman books do that same thing for me.

It is always such an explosion on every page.

I've met James Chapman and read about Samuel Beckett and I dont think they assume or assumed since Beckett is dead that they were such exploding individuals.

I think really extreme disordered writing comes from individuals who really hate the order of modern life, but I also assume that feudal catholic life was probably pretty orderly, if not more so.

So they aren't really people that are condemning 'modern order and conformity' but the overall thing of society constantly demanding that there be order and people sacrafice certain freedoms for the sake of roads and municipal courts.

Both of them seem completely obsessed with their own freedom.

But from learning about them you see that they live within society's standings. They obey the laws, they pay their bills, and they take responsiblity over their own existence, the maintaining of it and such. They save up money for vacation, they book hotels and attend annual trips to the dentist.

But when they sit at the typewriter

It's like

"Now this is my game. My game. My personal game rules here. There are no rules, regulations, logic, math, schedules, outside formulas here, my game is being played, and these are the rules, and no one else is involved but whatever I desire. Yes, I might maintain the social contract in publc, but here alone, in this room, I am my own social contract."

I really like that.

There needs to be more of that in the world.

We all understand that things need to get done.

If we want to have electricity and take safe vacations and attend local parks and movie theaters.

We need to act normal and upright.

But we all need to go into little rooms and act like ourselves by ourselves.

Tonight

Two guys are sitting at a bar

Journey is playing on the juke box

a middle aged woman with a cheap haircut is talking on her cell phone crying and sometimes yelling.

The two men have faces.

Nobdy cares about their faces.

Their faces might as well be fuel pumps for cars.

Or maybe a pack of cigarettes.

They don't have names.

One is a C. and the other L.

L. doesn't care about anything but drinking until he gets drunk.

It is really important that he gets drunk.

C. thinks that the bar's glasses are really nice.

L. says to C., "Tonight I can write the saddest lines."

C. says, "Dude, seriously?"

L. replies, "Write, for example,'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'"

C. looks at the bartender's ass and says, "My car insurance bill went from 58 to 48 last week. I'm really happy about that."

L. says, "The night wind revolves in the sky and sings. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too."

C. responds, "Too bad my car doesn't work."

"Through nights like this one I held her in my arms. I kissed her again and again under the endless sky. She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too. How could one not have loved her great still eyes."

"I don't think she even liked you. Seriously she was always out getting drunk and fucking other people."

"Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her. To hear the immense night, still more immense without her. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture."

"You guys only dated for two weeks. And you barely ever spoke to each other."

L. says softly, "What does it matter that my love could not keep her. The night is shattered and she is not with me. This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her."

"I had sex with her in the late 90s."

"My sight searches for her as though to go to her. My heart looks for her, and she is not with me. The same night whitening the same trees. We, of that time, are no longer the same."

"We're in a bar."

"I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her. My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing. Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before. Her voide. Her bright body. Her inifinite eyes"

"My gout is killing me."

"I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her. Love is so short, forgetting is so long. Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms, my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her."

"You can't love, you're the most bipolar person I know."

"Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer and these the last verses that I write for her."

C. sighs and says, "All right, I'll buy you a shot."

I just learned to play Rape Me on the ukelele

my life has meaning

I keep yelling RAPE ME

Why I live in Youngstown

A lot of people have asked me why I go somewhere else

This is more sociological than an actual free will choice

If you are Italian in the Youngstown area it isn't that bad.

There's like a whole Italian culture.

and not like some strange pseudo Little Italy thing they have in some cities.

The Italianness of the people has mutated into something else.

There are Italian restaurants and pizza shops everywhere.

There are Italian super markets.

Italian made local wines and pasta sauces. Ragu is referred to as 'white people sauce.' It is more honorable to get Belleria or Mount Carmel sauce.

There are ITAMs everywhere.

You go into a donut shop, that is called "plaza donuts" and Dean Martin is playing on the CD player.

All the weddings, even for white people, have Italian food.

The other day at Red Lobster they ordered like ten pizzas for mother's day for the employees and they ordered a bunch of white pizza with banana peppers and those were the first ones ate. Which I don't think many places even have white pizza. We also have spinach and briar hill pizza which are unique to the area.

Most of the local owners, politicians, cops and lawyers are all Italian.

All the doctors are Indian though.

The area supplies a sense of community and self-respect for Italians.

For white and black people and the youth not so much.

What I mean concerning the youth is, young white and black people enjoy things like dance halls and music concerts and all kinds of shit like that.

Italian Americans around here are happy to go to Francesca's eatery and chill. Since the zoning commissions are made of all Italians they don't care about creating a world for the whites and blacks to enjoy.

The only other cultural community in the area is Liberty which is a Jewish community. I want to give props to Liberty and its Jews though because they are the only town in the area that have welcomed with open arms the new black middle class growing in Youngstown.

barack obama is now my god

Obama changed how much people get in pell grants

It is only going to cost me like 300 dollars to go to college next year.

that is fucking insane

bush made me pay 2000 dollars last year

fuck yeah

goddamn

i have learned several things about government

I have been sitting around reading political philosophy, thought and sociology for the last two years.

I just took some classes on it too.

This is what I have learned about America and its constitution:

The founding fathers viewed humans according to Hamilton as 'vindictive, ambitious and rapacious.'

Which is a Hobbesian view of humans

generally as

they are shitty creatures

But they also took on Locke's view

which stated

yes they are shit

they are led by rational self-interest

true

but if they have rights and food they will act reasonably well

then there is Montesquieu

who thought humans were really shitty

and he proposed

that

religion does not make people better

morality and tradition does not make people do anything

those constructs are inefficient in making people behave properly

he proposes the separation of powers

The founding fathers take it even farther

separate the religions, separate the states, separate the news papers,

make everyone argue

make the churches argue

make the papers argue

make the politicians argue

make the communities argue

everyone will be fighting each other

which leads to no one getting ultimate power

because when humans get ultimate power than they act really shitty

this is strange and hard to comprehend

because for a human to understand

they have to admit

how shitty they are

and how much of their actions are dependent upon exterior circumstances

the founding fathers endorse capitalism

because it supplies incentives

these incentives

are like cheese with mice

it gets humans moving

because humans don't move for nothing

this is why there is a progressive tax

because the point of capitalism

is not to get people rich

but to get the mice to chase the cheese

this is why it is legitimate to tax people the more they make

because society is 'letting' them make that money because it isn't actually money, but a philosophical incentive that people will do things like collect garbage, tell stupid jokes on television, invent softer toilet paper, build funny looking cars, and generally a thousand asinine things that society requires.

The point of capitalism is to make sure human laziness does not take over. The point of capitalism is not to make certain people rich so they can be rich. Money for money's sake, which is not philosophical but conceptual art.

So when the government puts a higher tax on someone that makes more 'money.' They aren't actually taxing their 'money.' But their incentive.

Money is incentive.

This is the essence of contract theory

Everyone agrees to the social contract of capitalism

which states that humans are lead by rational self-interest

which means it is more effective to supply incentives

to get them to do things besides get drunk with their friends and be farmers, like humans did during feudalism

that the incentives will instigate humans to do more than just be farmers, it provokes them to be engineers, inventors and even social workers and doctors

The society agrees to this

they give up certain freedoms

but it sounds better than being in the state of nature

So when a person, a libertarian or republican says the phrase, 'my money' it is a fallacy.

There is no 'my money.'

They have a 'my money' because society allows it

and because society allows it

it is not totally their money

we could say that society goes so far as to not revolt, they agree to a currency, and the treasury agrees to print the money

What a person agrees to

is that if they work and do a certain job they will get a certain incentive that is relative to the labor they do

It can depend on the amount of training needed or if they show outstanding professionalism that gets them a higher payment.

I believe payments currently to be arbitrary

Because in my personal opinion the person who has the shittiest job in society is a proctologist.

Why I say proctologist is because the point of a Rawlsian incentive is to get humans to do things humans would not do like looking at stranger's assholes all day. And to become a proctologist requires years of expensive training.

It has the double effect, of training and doing something nobody wants to do.

But strangely we pay rock stars millions doing something we would all like to do.



Notes

Hobbes Leviathan
John Locke 2nd Treatise
Montesquieu the spirit of the laws
The Federalist Papers, Jay, Hamilton and Madison
John Rawls Theory of Justice and Political Liberalism

Captin Kirk falls off a ledge 400 times

Star Trek was almost as dumb as the dark knight.

More bombastic republican nonsense.

Wasn't the old star trek about civil rights, an international cast showing that people could get along.

Star Trek generations with Jean Luke was all like everyone having an identity crisis.

This one:

Hmm

BLAST

BOOM

CRASH

A MAN FALLS OFF A LEDGE

A MAN FALLS OFF A LEDGE

OH WAIT

ANOTHER MAN FALLS OFF A LEDGE

How many times are we expected to watch The Star Wars Matrix Clusterfuck movie and enjoy it.

I hope the Obama era creates movies where movies aren't anything but dumb characters blowing things up.

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!!

Today millions of Americans will go to restaurants with their bitching mothers, waiting to be seated for several hours while their mother bitches. Then they will sit at a table finally after three hours and the server will be running around in a mad rush never getting them a refill. The cooks will be in the back sweating pissed off they haven't got a cigarette break yet. The dishwashers will be stoned and bitching. I believe mother's day is about suffering. I think it is because carrying a meaty bowling ball around for nine months and then giving birth to it requires suffering and fortitude, so everyone must suffer today for the sake of their sweet life, no matter how it turned out.

To cheer everyone up here's a song:



This song reminds me of my mother

And not to sound pro-life, here's a song to most of my female friends

I need to get all this straight by Thursday 10:30

Tell me if I fuck this up.

Skinner v. Oklahoma is about a guy who stole chickens and committed two robberies. Those were considered crimes of moral turpitude. Oklahoma sterilizes for those crimes. White collar crimes are not included. Oklahoma thinks that if they do this then they will clean the genetics of the citizens of Oklahoma. Skinner wants to have kids. Skinner goes to supreme court. Justice Douglas concluded that it was bullshit.

This is the first time Supreme Court mentions childbirth.

Poe v. Ullman is about condoms. People weren't allowed to use them. The supreme court ruled they did not have standing because no one was enforcing the law.

Griswold v. Connecticut is about condoms. That married cannot use condoms. The court ruled married couples using the 9th amendment had a 'right to privacy.' Justice Douglas wrote the awesome line, "specific guarantees in the Bill of Rights have penumbras, formed by emanations from those guarantees that help give them life and substance.” It also used the due process clause.

Eisenstadt v. Baird is about unmarried people using condoms. it violated the equal protection clause.

Roe v. Wade is about something, I can't remember, I know some people that have utilized it though, it is the right to privacy and the due process clause.

Bellotti v. Baird is about abortion, but you have to ask your parents to do it. It contains allowance for judicial bypass.

My personal case I was assigned: Hodgson v. Minnesota is about minors having to get permission from both parents to get an abortion. Even if one of the parents aren't around and one of them is raping you. They ruled the girls don't have to get both parents but they still have to ask one of them unless they can get judicial bypass.

Planned Parenthood v. Casey: This is what is what JUSTICE O'CONNOR, JUSTICE KENNEDY, and JUSTICE SOUTER said, ") Roe determined that a woman's decision to terminate her pregnancy is a "liberty" protected against state interference by the substantive component of the Due Process Clause of the Fourteenth Amendment. Neither the Bill of Rights nor the specific practices of States at the time of the Fourteenth Amendment's adoption marks the outer limits of the substantive sphere of such "liberty." Rather, the adjudication of substantive due process claims may require this Court to exercise its reasoned judgment in determining the boundaries between the individuals liberty and the demands of organized society. The Court's decisions have afforded constitutional protection to personal decisions relating to marriage, see, e.g., Loving v. Virginia, 388 U.S. 1 , procreation, Skinner v. Oklahoma ex rel Williamson, 316 U.S. 535 , family relationships, Prince v. Massachusetts, 321 U.S. 158 , child rearing and education, Pierce v. Society of Sisters, 268 U.S. 510 , and contraception, Griswold v. Connecticut, 381 U.S. 479 , and have recognized the right of the individual to be free from unwarranted governmental intrusion into matters so fundamentally affecting a person as the decision whether to bear or beget a child, Eisenstadt v. Baird, 405 U.S. 438, 453 . Roe's central holding properly invoked the reasoning and tradition of these precedents. Pp. 846-853."

According to my professor if you know what you are talking about you say Casey v. Planned Parenthood and not Roe v. Wade as official abortion law. That when you go to the supreme court you argue Casey and not Roe.

There, a short history of abortion cases. To read the whole cases go to find law

I also have to learn about San Antonio v. Rodriguez which is about school funding. The Supreme Court concluded that wealth is not a suspect classification and that school is not a fundamental right.

If I have fucked this up, comment.

Published at Cookie Bomb

Serious poem

Recession Gardens will not save you money

I was watching CNN or MSNBC the other day, I can't remember which one.

And they were talking about "recession gardens" and saving money.

Here is a link to what they were talking about.

I grew a good sized garden last year and will grow a bigger one this year.

Gardening will not save you money.

You have to buy shovels, hoes, seeds, plants, gas for the rototiller and other little things.

It costs like 150 to have a garden.

The food it produces might equal 200 dollars.

Unless you are growing acres upon acres of land it won't save you money.

But here are some reasons why I garden:

1. It gives me a reason to go outside in the summer instead of laying on my couch depressed reading Chekhov.

2. I like the taste of fresh vegetables.

3. I like to watch things grow.

4. It gives me a sense of pride.

No where in there is saving money.

If the media really wanted you to save money.

They would say

Cancel your cell phone plan and cable.

That would give you around 140 dollars extra a month.

Or maybe, "don't go to the bar on Saturday night and buy alcohol with a credit card."

or, "Don't buy lottery tickets or gamble at all."

The most awesome spam I've ever got

These are the greatest sentences I have ever read.


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children and animals. Drop me a line

Au revoir
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