RETURN TO SENTAGRAPHS!

When I was little, about six or seven.

I played peewee baseball.

I couldn't hit the ball.

I went home crying one day to my father, "I can't hit the ball."

There was no heart warming conversation.

He gave me a bat and he got a ball.

We went outside.

He kept throwing the ball and screaming, "KEEP YOUR FUCKING EYES ON THE FUCKING BALL!"

He would get behind me and grab my arms violently and scream, "LIFT YOU FUCKING ELBOW UP!"

Then he would throw the ball more.

We did this for hours for days.

He would scream, "KEEP YOUR EYE ON THE BALL!"

Then he would scream, "LIFT YOUR FUCKING ELBOW UP!"

From that experience I learned the value of practice.

I played sports growing up,

I played soccer, baseball, basketball, and football.

I learned the value of practice.

Before i wrote the human war i wrote a thousand random pages of prose. And at least two thousand pages of poems.

Since the human war I've written two thousand pages of prose.

I think I have learned how to write now.

Maybe even write a novel.

Tao posted some essay by somebody named Sacks I think about how young people write short things that don't have a plot and really aren't novels, i read it, i think it is true.

Because I've written a bunch of short things that aren't novels but short things that just resemble a bunch of short stories.

I like those things books, ones written by young, that are just crazy emotional outbursts, because I have crazy emotional outbursts.

I like long flowing novels though too, and I would like to write one of those.

It took a lot of practice.

the last two things i wrote that were completed was Treatise and a memoir.

Treatise rewrote a Chekhov book, and the memoir was based off of Norman Mailer's Armies of the Night.

It taught me a lot to imitate them.

I would suggest to anyone to find a couple of their favorite books and in their spare time rewrite them to learn how that author did it, to understand literature and how it works on the human mind better. What makes great literature.

I love literature.

I love literature more than my family, more than any woman, more than online internet communities.

I love literature, which means I think about it constantly, trying to understand it, I kiss and fuck it, I anally penetrate literature, i deep throat literature.

Now I am writing a book.

I'm going back to sentagraphs.

People seem to like them.

They are fun I guess.

I think i can do it now because now I have fear to do it, blue collar people don't really do anything but drink without a sense of fear forcing them to do it.

I got a letter stating that I owe 10,000 dollars to a college loan institition, that I owe it all in one installment.

Because of this i cannot return to school, which sucks because I was planning on returning.

Now i must write a book, get an agent, and sell it for at least 15,000 dollars to pay off the bill.

I wish Norman Mailer would come over and beat me and scream, "MAKE THAT FUCKING LINE FLOW!"

or, "WORK ON THAT FUCKING CHARACTER!"

But that isn't happening.

I'm alone.

Writing this novel.