Bad Faith is part of evolution
We have all had this experience: (Cliche, deal with it, I'm an ass)
You meet someone and they are really hot and it is like your brain won't compute that they are an idiot. And you get a crush on them, and find out as time passes they are actually an idiot or really horrible or not your style of person.
So it is kind of like, you see this person you're attracted to, and you tell yourself they are really great, when they are not. So that's Bad Faith.
Then it made me think what if Bad Faith was stripped away, LIKE ALL OF IT, like tomorrow, ALL of humanity was stripped of its ability to lie to oneself.
I imagined it.
(Now I want to say, I'm not clear of bad faith. I'm a person, you know.)
But lets say all of humanity was stripped of Bad Faith tomorrow.
I don't think it would help the human species survive.
1. A lot of people would wake up and realize who they were dating or married too were assholes and that would decrease breeding.
2. A lot of people would realize they don't want to wipe shit off baby ass and that would decrease breeding.
3. A lot would realize they aren't cut out to be parents and that would decrease breeding.
4. a lot of people would realize they wouldn't want the responsiblity of having a child and that would decrease breeding.
5. A lot of people are assholes and people would see they are actually assholes and not have sex with them, and that would decrease breeding.
6. A lot of people have babies to fit in with their friends and that would decrease breeding.
People think that Survival of the fittest means people would get smarter.
But that's not the point of evolution.
Evolution is like,
get food and fuck.
If intelligence isn't needed to get food and get fucked then evolution won't improve those things.
It is almost, i say almost, because I'm not a trained biologist.
I'm just some dude.
I think what i'm trying to say is, is perhaps it is part of the human brain that allows us humans to lie to ourselves, that we can hold contradictions in our heads.
That we have this mechanism because it helps us breed to keep the species alive.
posted by Noah Cicero @ 11:44 PM
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8 Comments:
I am sad you think all this is true, but I understand.
I did this exactly once. I learned my mistake and moved on. I was lying to myself, I knew I was lying to myself from the beginning. I did it anyway.
Nothing else you say fits my reality. So there you go. And I'm not lying to myself. My boyfriend is superb. I don't know why he is with me at all.
I want kids, I even want other people's kids. I was a nanny and teacher's assistant and after school care director. I wanted to steal other people's kids and take them home. Literally. I had a kid, he was four. The teacher's hated him and were horribly mean. He asked me every other day if I would take him home (being abused by a bad boyfriend, couldn’t prove it, and I wanted to do so so bad. He would give me flowers and drawings and things at the end of the day. I have one of those flowers on my dashboard. I cried those days.
Kids are my dream. I have the perfect man for it too. He’ll make a wonderful father. He is so patient it’s unbelievable, but he practically raised his brothers and sisters. I just don’t have the money yet.
The incessant crying and whining and ass-wiping (and I’ve done a whole lot of that) is worth one brilliant moment a day. Pure ecstasy. Children are beautiful. They make me sane. Other people get sick of kids. I get frustrated with adults, but kids so rarely. I love children. Each and every one of them.
I know I've never had a full-time child, people say that to me all the time, that it's different. It is, I know. It really is. But I want that. I want all the children in the world. And I desperately want my own.
No lies.
It's good somebody is as aware as I am of my sex life.
That kid's name was Ronnie. Ronnie. Ronnie told me he loved me every day, and you can't tell them you love them to, you know, perverts ruin it for the rest of us. I had to grab his little face and tell him how sweet and good he was except for maybe twice I said it without thinking. He'd see me and give me a big hug, which sometimes meant that he ran out of his preschool classroom to hug me when I was walking back to the middle school classroom. That was a problem for a while. I talked to him about it though and he stopped. I told him it scared his teacher and I because we wanted to make sure he was safe. Really she hated him. She pulled him too hard by the arm once and I almost smacked her, but then I would have lost my job. She was very nice with everyone else though. No one would have believed me. That's always how it is. He wanted to have me chase him around the playground whenever it was time to come in. That was a problem to. I gave him the job of ringing the bell to call everyone in. Which meant I had to hold him up, which meant he couldn't get away. Don't think I neglected the other kids or anything. I just knew what that one kid needed, you know, when nobody else did. I was the only one he didn't have "discipline issues" or "behavioral issues" with. I wanted to steal that kid. I planned out how to steal that kid. But I knew it could only end badly. It’s a fucking shame the parents kids end up with.
I had a lot of those "discipline issues" or "behavioral issues" when I was a kid. All my teachers thought I'd been abused. Never was though. Just alternately angry and depressed. Out of control. I punched a kid in the face when he tried to ask me a question while I was reading. I was fucking reading, I said, I tried to ignore him. That’s what I was supposed to do, to try to ignore him. But his face was all bloody and everything.
When I worked at that school, I took over as a sub one afternoon with third graders. At the end of the day they usually got a story. So I had this brilliant idea and read them "The Wish" by Roald Dahl. Which I don't think is really a story for children, or maybe it is, it’s dark, darker than his other books, but they related in the beginning to picking scabs but by the end they looked a little old, introspective. After a minute of silence a girl, I'm struggling for her name, finally asked "Why did you read us that story?" I said I didn't know. I asked her why she thought I read that story. I don't know, she said. On the way out, they were very quiet. One of the kids labeled "trouble kid" (his little sister was abducted in front of his house, he couldn't have done anything, but he thought he ought to have been able to save her, he told me as much, "It was like I was frozen," he said. “It’s my fault,” he said. He was seven) he stayed behind, he was quiet. He said, "can I borrow your book?" I had to say no. I apologized. Some of these stories really aren't for kids, I said. I doubt your parents would be happy. Otherwise I would. He nodded, he understood. I probably would have been fired. I pushed it a lot. He asked me to write down the name of the author and the name of the story. "That was a good story," he said. I nodded. He was seven.
Kids are very, very smart. We dumb them down. It’s fucked up. Just the way we talk to them is ridiculous. You talk to a kid like he’s a child, he talks and acts like a child. But he’s barely a child. No one’s a child. Or no one’s a child until we dumb them down. They become perpetual children.
I’m depressed now. Really fucking depressed. Maybe I’ll continue this later. On my blog as soon as I can. I’m locked out somehow.
I’m sorry.
I would never have sex anymore with stupid boys unless they were mute, but since stupid, good looking, boys need their tongues and do fun things with them occassionally if they're not saying stupid crap, which they usually are, I have sex with good looking, smart boys, but will probably not have children even though I should more than most people should.
decreasing human breeding doesn't help the human species?
i would say overpopulation is one of the most crucial problems.
self-deception has many benefits but continuing reproduction is certainly not one of them.
Colin
I agree.
Much less than in this country. I don't want to put in all the numbers here, but Afghanistan has a 14.5% had a natural population growth (excludes immigrants) while we had a 0.6% NPG and we are projected to keep a steady decline for the next twenty years (again excluding immigrants, if you take them into account, our population will actually increase steadily, but not due to natural birth). We have increasing problems getting pregnant in the US. Probably plastics.
There. How's that. It's other countries you where you where you need to decrease growth. How the hell do we do that without being Nazi bastards? I don't know.
Sorry about the repeated words. I have a brain tumor. Maybe.
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